Wednesday, November 30, 2005


Haven't been blogging for some time now because I haven't felt up to it. I'm still not very up to it but I guess there are some things which I want to get off my chest. I've begun to realise that I'm very emotion-ful. Although I may think with my brain but most of the time I act with my emotions. I act how I feel. My face always shows how I'm feeling if you know how to read me right. My face always betrays my feelings and that sucks. That means no poker for me.

Anyway, I realised that when I like someone; it is rather difficult for me to forget about her. It just isn't as easy for me to forget about past feelings as it is for many others. How can you let go of such fond memories and sweet times? I certainly find it difficult to do that. I'm not the "out-of-sight, out-of-mind" type. I'm more of the "miss-you-while-you-are-gone" type. I just really need my brain to control my emotions instead of my heart. I do want to stop caring and thinking but I just can't. I won't call being able to let go easily cold hearted, but I just don't understand how some people can set aside their feelings so easily. It truly amazes me at times.

All I've ever wanted in life was someone to be by my side. Even if it isn't a special girlfriend, a great friend would do. But I don't think I'm so lucky. Maybe its just me but I don't think that eventhough you're honest and sincere to your friends but some friends just don't treat you back the same way. To me, I would never do something that would jeopardise my friendships. It might be paranoia but I don't think it's impossible for a friend to stab me in the back when I least expect it. What can I do when someone I feel that I'm close to tells me that we should only meet up once a fortnight and talk on the phone max 3 times a week?!

Sunday, November 06, 2005

Langkawi ROCKED!

Just got back from Langkawi yesterday. Langkawi itself TOTALLY ROCKED man! What's not to like there?! Our hotel, Awana Porto Malai was superb! The company was EXCELLENT! The booze was TERRIFIC! No regrets or complaints man. Oh oh.... I need to mention that our van driver was DARNED GOOD! R-E-S-P-E-C-T man!! If you need to employ a part time van driver do let me know. I'll give you his contact number. But to be fair there were cons as well, the beach on erm... forgot the beach name but it was 1 of the 3 islands you will go to if you choose the island hopping package, TOTALLY sucked! Oh gosh! Murky waters, painful sea bed and no chicks! =( The trip to Langkawi and back was EXTREMELY horrendous as well. If not for the excellent company in the car I would have probably gone crazy. =) You know who you people are so I need not mention names.

But I have to say that Langkawi was DEFINATELY a blast man! I had so much fun with the GREAT bunch of people I went with. Seriously, trips are not only about location, it's also about the people you go with. I'd rather go to a place that's not so nice with a great bunch of people than to go to a great place with a not so nice bunch of people. All the people there were TERRIFIC! Without them this wouldn't be such a great experience. Although the trip didn't start of great for me but the important thing was that I put everything behind me and just focused on having fun. :) Will post up pics and finer details soon. :)

Wednesday, November 02, 2005

Off to Langkawi

Hei, I'm off to Langkawi in 5 hours time. I shall describe Langkawi in 4 words,

"Sun, Sea, Sand & BOOZE!"

Will update when I get back. I know that it will be GREAT!